I haven't posted in a bit. I have found it difficult to make time to do so. But let me catch up everyone up (is anyone out there?) with where I am. I registered for the triathalon. I've been running and biking despite feeling sick (sour throat) and a stiff neck. I feel really nervous about it still, especially when it's a running day. Running is so hard for me. I don't run really fast, so running any distance takes time. Plus it's cold out, and I don't think it would be great to run my daughter outside with me (I hate running, but why not push a 35 pound kid in front of my while I do it. Doesn't sound like my cup of tea, even though I do enjoy her company.). So it's a tredmill at this point and I am struggling. My head starts spinning through my options: how far can I run before I have to stop, what speed, should I increase it, how slow should I allow myself to go, can I walk? It's like I am trapped and I'm finding ways to get out. What am I so worried about? Why can't I just say I"m going to run and run. Today, I was running and it was like I was running uphill through water with bricks tied to my thighs and, man, the mental game was rough. I did walk for 2 min. but I didn't get off and I did run farther than I thought I would. But running is hard.
I have yet to swim. I know I have to swim, no way around it, and I like swimming once I'm in the water, but I have a million reasons it's a bad idea. It's cold, I already have dry skin, my hair is already dry, BUT I have to get there. I bought a warm sweatsuit so I won't freeze in and out of the gym on my way to the pool. Something about getting in a cold pool when I'm already cold doesn't appeal to me. Now I just have to plan the time to swim. Let's hope by my next post I have been in the pool.

Financially:
Decided not to buy the Annie tickets. My daughter is only 21mo. and even though she loves the movie, she won't remember the play. I think I'll wait until she's old enough to remember it. I've been a spending freak on her. One book here, one book there, a horse, two stuffed animals, 4 pairs of tights- it must stop. I think I need to set a weekly limit. On the up side, I was under my food budget last week by $50. Yeah me!

Community:
I need to get my daughter baptized and join my church.

Business:
My website is coming along! I'm so excited to see it finished, then I have to start advertising. I ran into someone I used to work with who makes beautiful bows and headbands for girls, and she said she could help me figure out which craft shows will make the most sense for my product. I really have to contact her when the site is finished.

So that's it in a nutshell. I think it would be interesting to think more about why I am so afraid to run. What holds me back there?